Gypsy girl

“She was just a gypsy girl

with her dark and dreamy eyes

she danced for zena martell

she was gifted and so wise”

As I was standing, waiting for Caden to go into class one morning Mel commented that she had a book that she thought I might be interested in reading. Before she had even gotten her words out one of my Guides gave me a very strong YES reaction (I call it my Spidey Sense, it’s sort of like being hit by a great big static electric shock down my spine).

Two days later I found myself sat with a cuppa and Mel’s copy of “The girl in the painted caravan” by Eva Petulengro.As I opened the book my Mum’s maiden name of Pattison popped into my head with the words “you’ll find your family in here!”

I began to read. The story was about Eva’s childhood growing up in a Gypsy caravan during the war years. This true story gripped me and I could not put it down.

Day two passed and no sign of the name Pattison, I forgot the message as the story pulled me in.

Day three and I was nearing the end of the story when I read a line that sent my Spidey sense a tingling. There it was in black and white “Sony Boy Pattison from an old Romany family”

I did a little research and found out that Pattison was the Irish version of the name Patterson. My Mum always said that there was Irish blood in her. The Pattisons left Ireland probably in the fourteenth or fifteenth century and settled in the North East of England. My Mum’s Granddad walked in the Jarrow March, we are a Geordie family from South Shields. But most impressive of all was the fact that the Irish Pattisons who settled in the North East were an old Romany Gypsy family. Guess that answers a lot of questions about my gifts.

opening up

Opening up

1 Sit or stand and allow your body to relax. Feel the muscles around your eyes and mouth relax, and allow yourself a slight smile. Feel your shoulders coming down and any tension in your back or neck easing. Now feel the relaxing feeling flowing up and down your body.

2 Allow your breathing to deepen and become even, flowing comfortably. When any thoughts come into your mind, just allow them to float away for this short period of time. You do not need them just now.

3 Now imagine a beautiful white light shining down from the universe. It flows right into the top of your head, flowing down and connecting you with the universal energy that knows everything. Feel the energy connect you, and allow your own energy to flow easily and naturally.

Closing down

1 After each exercise allow your breathing to become regular and feel the white light slowly drawing back towards the universe. It has now completed its job.

2 Allow your own energy- your aura and Etheric Energy- come back to its usual size and shape. Know that each time you use your energy and tap into the universal force the connection has become a little stronger, protecting you and keeping you aware.

3 Feel yourself connect with your body and its usual state. Feel your feet on the ground and your body and mind strong.

Spiritualist Jedi

I was recently shocked to discover how much I hate the word God. So much so that I had to look within and discover why. My meditation helped me to realize that it was not God I had a problem with rather it was the hatred and religious intolerance shown towards me by some so called Christians.

I decided to use this experience to write a talk for use next time I give a talk on philosophy at the Spiritualist centre service.

During my development class I was given a questionnaire to fill in. I froze when I saw “Write no more than 4 things which should be included in a prayer to God.

My initial reaction was GOD, what does he have to do with my Spiritualism and how can I continue if I do not believe in him?

I have come to trust my gut reactions; they are normally a sign that work needs to be done here. Why did I react so badly to the word God? I have suffered discrimination and yes abuse due to my beliefs. Once I was refused to rent a shop because the ladies in the charity shop next to it decided that healing is not Christian and I was accused of Devil Worship and working with Demons! This did nothing to endear their so called loving God to me, the idea of there being an all knowing, all seeing “old man” watching, judging me is not my idea of the divine.

I could pretend and just continue, but that would not be fair to me, or Tom (my teacher), and most importantly it would not be fair to you!

So what is my idea of the divine?

If you look at all the major religions of our world then you begin to see the common link in them all. There is a Golden Thread of truth which has been woven into the ideas and philosophies of their founders. From a Pagans love of Nature, the Buddhist’s reverence for the Tao and a Spiritualists understanding of the spark of divinity that is in us all, our immortal souls this thread can be seen weaving in and out of beliefs the world over.

I belief that whatever we call him God, Universe, Allah or Elohim she is always the same deity. So I guess I do belief in God, but in the one that connects us all, he does not judge us, she does not discriminate between us, and it flows through and around us offering nothing but energy and love.

So what religion do I class myself as following; I am an eclectic, I consider myself part Buddhist, part Pagan, but All Spiritualist.

Why am I telling you this?

If like those kind ladies in the Salvation Army charity shop you go about your life judging other religions as false or misguided or even evil then you will miss that beautiful golden thread that offers us truth and love and hope. That would really be a shame because once you see this thread you then see the beauty that is in all the different cultures and beliefs that are on this planet. I wish that more people could see that no matter what our religions, we are all the same. Brothers and Sisters each with our own nick name for our Lord.

No more Religious intolerance what great way to celebrate all our different faiths.

What do you think?

Ghostly playmate

Those of you who know me will also know that I don’t half have some weird dreams. Sometimes they are just plain old weird dreams but occasionally they are more than that. I woke this morning and realised that I had just had one of the more than dreams.

Before I tell you my dream let me just introduce you to Caden’s friend.

From my grandsons birth I have been aware of his playmate. This cheeky little boy has, from day one, been by his side. Caden was only days old when I woke to the sound of a small toddler playing by his Moses basket. As Caden has gone from toddler to the terrible two’s and beyond this small child has gone toddler to a school boy, he has “grown up” with my grandson! This was fine whilst Caden was little because he just accepted him as a friend and I spent hours listening to games and laughter as they played together. The problem is now that Caden has got older, he knows there is something odd, different with his friend. This was fine until his school mates became obsessed with monsters and aliens; Caden’s friend now scares him! It eventually got to a point where I had to ask him to stop playing for a while, just until Caden accepted him again. He has been good, sort off; Caden has been more relaxed since I explained to his friend that he was scaring him. I woke two nights ago to a familiar voice exclaiming “come on, let’s play”, Caden was fast asleep at the time!

He has been here for many years before Caden arrived and I guess he is lonely, but even so I wish he didn’t wake Caden up in the middle of the night.

In my dream I was at my development class, we were asking for a sign that someone was there when we noticed a mist forming. This mist formed into “smoke circles” before it created several more patterns, each one becoming more intricate and beautiful. As I looked I became aware of a small boy who was forming these patterns in the mist, he slowly floated up to me and as I looked into his eyes my heart melted. I knew at that moment that all he wanted was to be a part of a family again. That lonely child had maybe the first hug since he had died. I woke still with the feeling of being hugged.

I do not know what to do now, this little soul has captured my heart. But how do I help him, can I help him? Should I even try? Does he need to find his own family? Is there some other reason that he has become so close to Caden and now to me? For now we will continue as we are, until I can work out what to do about our little friend, if anything.

The washing machine curse strikes again!

There are times when I wonder whether it’s worth it!

Don’t get me wrong, I love my gifts.

I love how I can talk with my loved ones who are no longer here.

I love how during a reading you get that look of absolute amazement, shock, how the f**ck did she know that moment.

What I don’t like is my ability to affect electrical appliances, or EPK

Electrical Psychokinesis (EPK): the ability to manipulate electrical objects.
Where street lights, [electrical] clocks, computers, and any /or
all electrical appliances are affected; usually negatively.

This week I have blown up my 4^th microwave and fried my 17^th washer, yes you read that right no 17 has just died!

On Monday I walked into my kitchen only to see my washer turn itself on (yes it was turned off at the time) and begin to fill up with water. I should’ve just walked out the room but I had to go see what it was doing. As I got closer all the lights started flashing, I turned the power off as I didn’t trust it not to blow up. I have just tried it again and yes it is still filling itself with water and flashing at me. So RIP no 17!

This is really getting stupid, is it worth me replacing it? Apart from the inconvenience and the real possibility that it could cause an accident, there is also the cost of replacing them.

Am I destined to always wash my clothes in the bath? At the moment my bath is full of soaking clothes ready for me to finish washing them.  It’s not hard to do and it is saving me a fortune in electricity!

Maybe I will just not buy washer no 18! Think that I can also do without a microwave; I really don’t like using them anyway.

Now the problem is the rest of the electrical items that I have to regularly use.

Think yourself lucky that this doesn’t happen to you as it really does affect my life. Computers crash, TV’s lose their signal, tills go mental, and car alarms go off. The list is endless as it can strike any electrical appliance that I happen to be near.

Beware if I come to visit you, don’t let me touch anything electrical.

I have broken a washer belonging to my sister!

Recipe for life

When you bake, things taste better if you actually follow a recipe. Whilst meditating today I received a cake recipe.

The cake of life.

Ingredients

Tub of kindness

6oz of love

5oz of patience

1oz of trust

6oz of compassion

Packet of knowledge

Jar of hope

Method

Add 6oz kindness with the love, patience, trust and compassion to a mixer.

Mix

Grease a cake tin with a little kindness and pour in the cake mix.

Bake in a medium universe

Once cool slice in half

Mix together a little kindness and knowledge until smooth and creamy

Spread a layer of hope over one cake half and then use the creamed knowledge to sandwich your cake together

Finally sieve a little more knowledge over the top of your cake

As with any cake, this one tastes a lot better if shared with family and friends. Maybe with a cup or two of fun!!!!!

Who wrote this recipe?

I don’t know, but it needs to belong to everyone.

Share your cake and pass on the recipe for life. Let’s see how much sweeter we can make this World for us all to enjoy.

Seven Steps: Moving from Meditation into Dynamic Prayer

Years ago when I first started out on this journey I was given a meditation that I have used week in week out for over 11 years.

This very powerful meditation can literally be life changing.

I have used it to gain answers, heal and to help me to overcome my fears so that I can develop my gifts.

Seven Steps: Preparation

Find a quiet place where you will not be disturbed for at least 20 minutes. Close your eyes and breathe deeply and consciously.


If you are burdened about anything happening in your life, try imagining that each breath out removes toxins  from your system, and that each breath in fills you with pure white light.


When you are calm and centered, you are ready for the next step.

Seven Steps Explained

Step One:


1. I release my past, negatives, fears, human relations and inner self into the Light


Visualization


Think on a beautiful summer day. See the Sun shining before you. Use your power of visualization to bring that Sun so that it is placed right in front of you.


Release your burdens into that Sun:


  I release my past, negatives, fears, human relations and inner self into the Light


Your past is everything that has happened to you since the time your were born.   If you believe in reincarnation, this can mean everything that has happened to you since your soul was created.


When you think on your past, you can have feelings of regret, remorse, guilt - which can initiate an entire host of negative feelings about self and about others. Release these memories into the Light.   Consciously let go of them and see them being consumed by the brilliant Sun before you.


Your negatives are those things you perceive about yourself that you really don't like.   You may see them as personal limitations, ignorance, self-hatred, anger and nonforgiveness.   Release these things into the Light.   Consciously let go of them and see them being consumed by the brilliant Sun before you.


Your fears can be about a host of internal problems.   Perhaps the fear of the loss of a relationship, fears about money, things, people, places, events.  We do not talk here about the sense of alert that helps us to be careful about our actions. We talk about negative and crippling fear that causes spritual paralysis and lethargy. Release fears into the Light.   Consciously let go of them and see them consumed by the brilliant Sun before you.


Human relations can be either positive or negative - our feelings about them, our attempts to possess another, or having another try to possess us, or feelings of resentment regarding the actions or inaction of another.   An entire host of psychological problems can be traced back to our human relations, family interactions between ourselves and our father, mother, brother, sister, friend, perceived enemy, bully, teacher.   The list goes on and on. Release human relations into the Light.   Consciously let go of them and see them consumed by the brilliant Sun before you.


Finally, the monad that you perceive about yourself as the soul - your identity - you.   After your releasing - consciously merge into the Brilliant Sun before you.   The brilliant Sun is completely in, through and around you - you have become an integral part of that brilliant Sun.


Step Two: Affirmation
2. I am a Light being.

The essence of the soul is spiritual light. It is the native part of who we are. "Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter." In step two, you are affirming this and claiming it as well as accepting your spiritual inheritance in the Light. See and feel this affirmation deeply and allow the meditation upon it to focus for a few minutes.




Step Three: Turn up the dial


3. I radiate the Light from my Light center throughout my being.


Like a dimmer switch, here you are turning up the Light of the Sun you have become and flooding every atom, cell and electron with ineffible steely white light.   Your Light Center is a centered in your heart.   See yourself completely immersed and charged with the Light.


Step Four


4. I radiate the Light from my Light center to everyone.


Radiate the intense Light of your inner Jedi, your inner identity in the Light, to everyone you meet, to people you know, to your family, friends, loved ones, and to people you do not know - to everyone.


Step Five


5. I radiate the Light from my Light center to everything.


Flood your room, your home, your block, your city, your nation, your planet, your solar system and your universe with your Light.   Radiate the Star of your being to everything.


Step Six: Protection


6. I am in a bubble of Light, and only Light can come to me, and only Light can be here.


Your Light Bubble is about nine feet in every direction - about eighteen feet in diameter.   It is an inpenetrable armor of Light that can protect you spiritually from the discord of others and the arrows of hostility.


Protection is very necessary. Use and affirm your Light Bubble throughout the day.


Step Seven - Final step - A heartfelt thank you....


7. I thank the Light for everyone, everything and for me.


Gratitude for the Light blesses the experience and allows us to magnetize even more Light and the abundant life.   You are sealing your energies with this final step.